Helpful Mindfulness excersise

Experience the “here and now” feeling that comes from practicing mindfulness.

Some core features of Mindfulness are; Observing, Describing, Participating fully, being

non-judgmental, Focus on One thing at a Time.

Observing involves experiencing life rather than just living it. You need to use your senses

rather then life inside your own mind. Don’t think, EXPERIENCE!

Going into detail about what you’re experiencing can help you get more out of an event. What

do you see? Look closer? Now what do you hear? what else?

Participation was always important in school, and now it’s important in life. Have you ever

given you’re all at something. If you can give 100% in a soccer game why not in life.

Remember, when practicing mindfulness don’t judge. Nothing is inherently good or evil.

A thought is just a thought, a feeling is just a feeling. Experience it and move on. In this world, overstimulation is a huge thing try focusing on one thing at a time. Don’t think about what

you’ll do tomorrow, that conversation you had 8 years ago. Stay present and in the now.

Try this easy “5-4-3-2-1” mindfulness exercise the next time you feel anxious, overwhelmed or depressed.

focus your mind and try to find...

5 things you can SEE

4 things you can TOUCH

3 things you can HEAR

2 things you can SMELL

1 thing you can TASTE

Seriously... Turn down for what?

I'm currently taking Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) for psychosis and think a lot of people could benefit from this kind of therapy. So here are my notes on how Cognitive Behavioural Therapy works and how you can use it in practice to help with any symptoms you may have with schizophrenia, depression, anxiety or anything else in your life that troubles you that you'd like to change.

No drugs, just positive thinking, practice and hard work. Don't worry, it's worth it!

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy focuses on your Thoughts-Emotions-Behaviour and how they relate to each other. Your emotions are how you feel and your thought is your way of thinking. You can't always control your thoughts or feelings, but you can control your behaviours. So when you are feeling sad, all you have to do is change your behaviour to be more positive and it will help your feelings and your way of thinking.

Here is an example on how to use this simple method to help change your perspective and help you along the way to being a healthier you:

You're walking down the street and you see someone walking by. It is the winter and the person is bundled up to keep warm, but you can't help shake the feeling that they have been following you. They are definitely the person who was behind you on the bus, and they have been following you walk down the street for 2 blocks now, the conclusion your brain reaches is that this person wants to hurt you in some way.

Thought: This person in the large coat wants to hurt me
Feeling: Scared, Anxious
Behaviour: Avoid that person, or maybe avoid people entirely.

The thoughts lead us to the feeling, which in turn leads us to the behaviour. If you do nothing to change this way of thinking, eventually you're brain will associate going out with all these negative emotions. So put on your critical thinking caps. We're about to go for a ride.

Instead of thinking "This person wants to hurt me" try thinking critically.
Is it cold? Should this person be bundled up, if yes, then that doesn't seem as suspicious, does it? Or maybe this person isn't the same person. In fact, I'm sure if you thought back you're realize you don't actually remember who was on the bus with you, so it could have very well been someone else who had a simaler coat on the bus than the person following you now. And most likely they just happen to be walking in the same direction, not following you.

Assessing your feelings can be helpful. Knowing how you are feeling can be helpful to find out how to change your emotion. If you know what emotion you feel, you may know the oposit feeling to try and change it to. The oposite of "sad" is "happy" the oposit of "distresed" is "comfort". Knowing how you feel is important for knowing how to change that emotion to something positive.

Modifying behaviour is first step. Decart said "I think therefor I am" however, this is more like "I act, therefor I believe". Instead of doing something negative, do something posotive, even if you don't feel like it. If it's for your own benefit it must be good. Instead of hiding under your sheets in bed all day, try going for a walk. Or atleast cleaning up a little. When you are feeling good about yourself try making a list of all the things that cheer you up and on days were you don't feel motivated just do one of the things on that list to try and cheer yourself up.

So bringing this new critical thinking skill, Assessment of feelings and behaviour medification into the mix lets re-evaluate The Thought-Feeling-Behaviour example.

Thought: That person is just on there way to work, or just happen to be headed in the same direction as me.
Feeling: Calm
Behaviour: Continue on with your day.

Now I'm no professional, I just read a lot and do my own research, but if you use this basic exercise the next time you feel suspicious of someone, or you feel an unwanted thought or emotion your day will go a lot better. Keeping in mind that this will take practice, and you'll have to practice being mindful and aware of your emotions. I suggest keeping a journal to keep track of your thoughts, feelings and keep track of what is going on in life. Your life can have a huge impact on your feelings and you can't always control what is happening in life. People get sick or die, it's out of your hands and it's not your fault, there's nothing that can be done in that case. Be sure to talk to someone and establish a good support system either through friends, family or even an online based community of like-minded people. Sometimes all it takes is just knowing you're not alone.
If you reach out to those around you  I'm sure you'll find that a lot of people are looking for a good support system just like you are.

I hope this helps at least a few. I'll keep you posted on other methods we learn and how to incorporate them into use for Anxiety, depression and delusions.

All the best,

Nameless Hipster Girl

Back to reality.... as far as you know

Hello everybody!

I am back after a long hiatus, I am back and ready to share any and all wisdom that I have.
Maybe not wisdom, but at least perspective.

My Dungeons and Dragons chart probably looks something like this:

Inteligence: 14

Charisma: 10

Dexterity: 8

Strength: 11

Wisdom: 16

I hope you are all doing well.

When I left this blog in 2014, I was having trouble with my mind. I was hallucinating, and I had a lot of delusions that I was convinced were real.

I fell into an alternate dimension, and died, came back in a new dimension. fell into a pit of despair and pulled my self out of it (with the help of my family). I was formally diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I was given medication for my hallucinations and delusions, but they didn't work, so they put me on something else for my emotions, but that made me more depressed, so here I am, drug-free, and doing pretty well. I still have disorganized thinking and illusions and delusions to deal with on a day to day bases, but all in all My life is as normal as it was before.

I manage my stress through breathing, meditation and I have learned to tell the difference between what is real, and what is not. I can also (if I'm not too stressed) turn down the radio in my head. Occasionally it's a radio, sometimes it sounds like a police scanner or some kind of communication between 2 or more people, but it's mostly in some other language so I don't know what they are saying. 

People say "when life gets hard, you have to get harder." but that's not really true. When life gets hard you should become jello. moldable, fit to form in any situation and just go with it. Try not to hold on to anger or stress. Sure you can feel angry or sad or anything you want for a little while, but you need to be able to let it go.

My hope for this new reboot of this blog is that people will see that people with schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder are just like ordinary people. I want people to know that not all schizophrenics are bad, in fact, most of them are fine people. I'll be sharing my tips and tricks that I'm learning in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) and hopefully, it will help give other people with mental illness the resources they need.

Schizophrenia is a mental illness just like any other mental illness. It's all chemicals in the brain. You won't look down on someone with the flu, so don't look down on those with any kind of mental illness.

All the best,

Nameless Hipster

Friday, I'm in love… does anyone know that song.

Hello Blog Readers

Do you Know I've had this blog sense 2012! My how time does fly. I was just discussing with my sister:
Me: Only 2 years left
Sister: What?
Me: Well more like one and a half I guess.
Sister: What…?
Me: Uh, I mean… plenty of time. No need to worry! Don't get your affects in order.
Sister: Well I should think so. If everyone's going to die, what would be the point?
Me: Exactly… everyone…

we have weird conversations though.
earlier today I said

TO THE BASEMENT-TORIUM!

and I got all the way downstairs, to my room, walking at a slow pace and then she responds.

"Wait, "Basement-torium"?"

Roll eyes thusly.

so I've started to write fan fiction to pass the time because, well you know…
no Netflix, no TV, no friends make nameless hipster go CRAZY! - er… crazier….

So I have some written for Harry Potter and some for Once Upon a Time (which is actually a show I hate, but I enjoy some of the dynamics. plus the fact it's shot in BC! Go Canada!)

I'll keep you guys posted on Twitter or what have you if I decide to post the stuff for all to see. Until than, practice the art of "Not Giving a F**k"! Peace!

Nameless Hipster

Let's talk

Hello readers new and old,

Today Bell canada has a special promotion going. When you text anyone with a Bell phone they will donate 5 cents to help raise awareness and to eliminate the stigma of mental health. Also use the hashtags #Bellletstalk on twitter.

This is a subject that is near and dear to my heart because I, like 20% of people, suffer from a mental illness. I'd like to be able to talk more openly about it without people thinking I'm "crazy" or "just having a rough day" or "just need a little more fiber in your diet"(those people especially can suck it).

I'm glad I can count on the people who do support me, but sometimes it's just not enough. Some days life is too hard. It's hard to get up and get things done. It's hard to look someone in the eye and tell them you're okay without bursting into tears. It gets harder and harder to lie to them and say over and over again "I'm just really tired, that's all". 

The truth is, it's hard to admit sometimes. So I want everyone who reads this to not only support raise  awareness and eliminate the stigma of mental illness all over the world, but I also want them to lend an ear. Not just today, but everyday. Anytime your friend needs to talk. Anytime your co-worker looks tired.  Lend your ears and try to understand. You may not know exactly what there going thru, but try to understand that it's not just a phase, they're not crazy or sick.

Don't be the one to suffer in silence. Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of. It's something I deal with on a day to day bases. It'll be a lifetime battle most likely, but on the days that I don't want to get up in the morning or I can't stand to talk to people or leave the house, I'm just glad I have a small amount of support to just give me a hug. People to sit next to me, and even without me saying a word they just tell me it's going to be okay. That day never seems to come, but one day it will. One day it will be okay that I feel the way I do. I'll be able to tell everyone how I'm really feeling instead of always saying "I'm fine!" I'll finally be able to say "I feel like I'm dead inside, I feel like everything in my life is just a phigmentation of my imagination, and I'm all alone in the universe." And they'll be able to look me in the eye and truthfully tell me "me too."

I'm a nameless hipster and I don't need your approval, but I will take your acceptance.